For all of us...

You are so weak...

I mean..
You ARE weak

No... Really...
YOU ARE !@#$%^&*DAMN WEAK!

You must adapt to wherever you are...

But It's not about where you are,
It's about what you do...

Don't expect...Don't assume...

You can't get everything you want...
But...
You will not get the thing that you want most.

Don't just run away~
Fix the things that's broken...
Doesn't matter whether the fault is on you or others...

For crying out loud,
JUST FIX IT!

Come On!!

Open up your eyes!
There are lots of possibilities...
But don't stick to just the negatives one.

Sometimes you can't always get help...
But don't blame on others for your problems.

Your problems is yours to settle...
If you want help, you can always ask...

But don't put your hopes too high...
It's not their fault for being unhelpful or non supportive.

In the future...
All of these are the common things.

It's time to grow up~!

So Immature

We are not perfect...
Everyone have a weakness.
But to make fun of their weakness...that is so immature.

When people said too much, they reveal themselves easily without knowing it.
Being an observer, I get to know more about them..

And so, I try to be tolerant...
Trying to accept other people's weaknesses...
Let them say whatever they want to say...

To think that they always did the right thing...
And others are stupid enough not to understand it...

But I remember a quote:

"For other to understand you, You must seek to be understood"

...and Don't Assume!...

Assumption is the mother of all disaster!

To think that I have no problems...
That I don't know everything yet...

Owh..
So you knew everything...?
Really? Wow!
But what you do...?

We can't always expect others to give whatever we want.
Try to look on yourselves on a mirror for once.
And think...

"Where did I do wrong...?"

Sorry...
I may look like always calm.
And keep quite most of the time.

But I to have feelings like other imperfect people...

Just A Crack

I can endure this...

A Cracked Heart

It's just something that I need to get through...

Wedding Season..?

There's a lot of wedding ceremony held a few days ago...

My friend's siblings...
My roommate's siblings...
His teacher...

and other people out there who have a wedding on the same day.

and as usual (well...not THAT usual),
as a member of PSSGM,
performing silat on a wedding ceremony is a norm.

Me and my bro (Hafidz) performing bunga simbah

After attend quite a number of wedding ceremony,
I thought to myself...
"When will my turn come?"

~LOL~

Loneliness...

As I sat in my lair....
Only boredom and emptyness fill in this shell.
The dullness taking up the empty spaces,
Where does the joy & cheerfulness gone..?

*staring...


Is there someone who is waiting for me out there?

*staring again...

come here and hug me... lol~!


The 1st phase of days of restlessness have passed,
Now come another phase...
Oh boy, how I miss my bed and pillow ~_~
Can't wait to celebrate my youngest bro this Sunday <3

Sheikh Ahmad Haiqal turn to 6 dis 7th December~!

:D Happy Birthday Haiqal~! <3

Tagged? alamak...

Well...I think I can write something for this tag thingy.

Got tagged by paez

Hmm...7 things about me...


1. I'm a shy person. That is why sometimes I don't talk too much. That is also the reason why I'm hard to get close to someone.

2. I get jealous easily. I felt jealous in all sort of reasons but try not to let it show. I often get very jealous of others but I am capable at controlling my emotions publicly. When I feel that other people are winning things that I deserve, I will get very upset, but I won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. My jealousy is private.

3. I always want to do so many things at once but eventually I might not achieve anything. Sometimes, I think that I'm capable to do anything... even though I'm not.

4. I'm a very sensitive and fragile person. I can get touched easily by things whether it is violence or romance.

5. I always wanted to do better, even it means pushing myself over my limits~

6. I'm a very careful person. Almost everything I do, I will make sure that it is the most reasonable thing...Even about revealing myself to others. I'm an efficient person but always need time to think through issues before taking action. I was called as "Mr Perfect" b'coz of my carefulness.

7. I'm prone to hold myself back. My inner desire never really had a chance to show it. I've let go a lot of chances without taking any risks. Safety first.


Well...that's all I can think of right now. I'm at a state of feeling terribly sleepy. ~_~
Doesn't want to tag anyone else...because my bed is calling me~
heheheh... :p

This 3 weeks...

There are many things to do yet I did so little... along this 3 weeks of holiday, I've become a driver to both of my brothers ~_~! But the truth is, I kinda lazy to drive them to school... But what to do... it's my responsibilities...

Other than that, My brother is having his SPM exam this year. Please pray for him so he can answer the exam easily~ n_n!

graduation day @ Crown Princess Hotel

Go for Straight A's~!

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With muh frens~

Even in this holiday, I was able to hang out with some of my friends to fill the emptyness in this whole week of boringness. (Yeah, as usual...we hang out at cc 1st before going anywhere else~) :p

tbun network internet cafe (http://www.tbun.com/)

hang out at J.Jusco with kudot & king~

king playing with his handphone :P

ni keje kudot la nie ~lol~

3 orang tapi ade 5 nset ?

~~~~~Hari yang seterusnya~~~~~

So we went to TGV to watch a cool movie. But they have planned to watch "Tropical Thunder"... I thought I want to watch HSM3~ lol. And they laugh at me. hahaha...

look at them laugh! haha

jahatnyer ktorg p ajak Talib. die da la tengah dalam study week :p

on the way back to home

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Narutimate Ninja~!

My little brother got caught by my soul posession jutsu! haha... Now he also become addicted to Naruto's stuffs~!

"abg Fadhil! cepat tangkap gambar!" lol

trying on my lil bro's naruto jacket

suprisingly...it "fits!" haha~

A change of heart

Why does heart changes so fast...yet hard to accept...?

Changes when you saw:

1. something new,
2. something different,
3. something better,
4. something attractive,
5. something interesting...

Ohh... and the keyword between the 2 words is "more"

The 1st and the 2nd one is the main reason why people's heart hard to accept...
They will think twice at least...
Personally, for me, I think more than twice.

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Will this heart ever stops from searching...?
Who/what will grab my heart...?
Is it even possible..?

Please prove me wrong~~

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But then,
I shouldn't put my hopes too much...
I'm suppose to be the one to give,
and not to accept blindly.

When they need me,
Am I able to be there to give comfort...?
Do I have the power to do so...?
My heart is confused because I'm hesitating...

~Till now, I wanted to reveal myself so badly...but will they accept it?~

It's just only the begining

First trimester has finally ended. Looking back to the road that leads me here was really thrilling, full of tense, laughter, confusion, rushing, less sleep, etc.[Euphoria]. Well, but my time management really is terrible! T_T. Apart from thrill, I also regret for what I have not done...I missed most of my Co-Curricular activities:

1. I missed the EMiNA's ice breaking session,
2. I missed the IU's ice breaking session,
3. I missed the AGM for CMC....

[The reason that I didn't attend....I was lazy and overslept during the time. heh2...]

The only thing that keeping me active was the PSSGM training session. Well, I just wanted to continue my training where I left off. I didn't want to waste what I have learned all this years just like that. Then, the first "BIG" activity that I join was the CCIP and it's really is an interesting program. I spend a lot of time preparing for the opening ceremony...and for the Grand Dinner, I get to eat sushi for free!! [yeah!]

Well, enough for the activities...the submission of assignments was really a pain in the ass. Too much work to do, yet too much things to do. The money flows away like a river T_T. I really need to change and plan my time management better...also the budget. No more last minute works.


But...
I tends to forget the people who supported me before. Who helped me in a lot of ways. I'm so ungrateful...


Most of the time...I realize that maybe I've become so numb. I've become the person that doesn't care about anything. But again...maybe I'm too soft-hearted...that I'm the one who's faking the numb feelings to cover it. Sometimes I didn't even know who I really am. What was I like back then..? Who have I become? Am I really myself before...or I am myself right now? Am I just imitating someone...? So much question to the question that I questioned...yet very less answer.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you...

{taken from Linkin Park: Numb}

I am sensitive, yet I am numb. Hard to felt sad & angry for someone...yet I'm easily sad & angry to myself. Am I selfish? But then...who wasn't? We're all wear mask. Life is but a masquerade...dances and acts on the stage called world. Full of lies and pretending...who can fools anyone who knew each other...

I wanted to change...I wanted to be able to accept...I wanted to be close with. Maybe, I should stop and let go my past. I need to think for the future...I need to plan for these 3 weeks of holidays to better understand myself.